Church

My question is "what is God doing in His church?" It really is no concern of mine as it is HIS church. But I do not want to be led astray.
Do I believe in the institutional church? Do I believe in the home church philosophy? Do I believe one has to go to church to stay in the right standing with God?

#1 the church I know does not save..I do know alot of people put alot of their identity in the fact that they have a church they attend religously..The first thing I get asked alot is "where I go to church?" And I sense the "OH MY" when I share I do not attend or belong to any. It is not that I want others to do as I do because that is not how it is for me. I rejoice in the fact that i have brothers and sisters in the IC and I pray for pastors ..I want the truth of Christ to be spoke and taught and lived. I have a tendency to place God in a box when I go to church.. somehow because of my past I have to deal with a magical thinking---God truely understands and my reason for going to church is to meet God. So with that said I get stuck in this false belief that God is only at such and such church..and He only comes there..such lies... God is omnipresent. That means He is with me everyday and I needn't be any different than I am at any other time when I go to church.. Yes I have been hurt by people who attend church BUT that isn't the reason I don't go..It goes back to the warzone I enter and I don't have peace to go unless my husband attends with me.
Home church....sounds good but the same stuff goes on but in a smaller sense..i hate the me and mine and no more mentality ...it may startoff good but them it again boxes God in
To have the right standing in going to church? NO...believing in the personhood of Jesus Christ and that he came and died and rose again ..that He is God's Son..To have an ongoing relationship with Father God...the lover of our souls..who created us for His Glory and Honor..we are the sons and daughters of the Almighty . I think we make the church into the institution of man ..so many programs..trying to save the lost..when it is God who saves..The church only seems to walk in love when the doors are open and even then maybe..I guess if Jesus would come today would He be in the church preaching? I think not ..He would be on the highways and byways...loving on people.meeting them where they were..Would he be having alter calls? I wonder where that came from? Peter preaching to the thousnads on pentecost? I have been told that the people who because of thier word that causes people to be born again Go will richly reward them beacuse they were faithful? Not all are called to preach..So God rewards pastors or preachers more than others? Did God not say He was not a respectors of persons? Are we not one body and does one body part have more honor than another?

i don't know what the church is all about..I don't understand and I don't totally believe that the new movement is about believers leaving the church as they are being 'free' to have relatioinship with Father God..I know relationship with God is good and for a season He may allow not going to church BUT yet we are called to serve one another in love..And the different forums I visit as they share it is like the attitude is the same ..they put down the IC and the way they are doing is better..but isn't that what the different IC say about their church? I know the way is a walk of LOVE..daily to everyone...and it is painful as at times i just want to say "God why does it seem i am the only one denying what I want ? as others look on and say I have it wrong? But inwardly I know Christ gave His all for me--I can't argue with that...He loved and loves me ..and His love conquers all...it caused the lame to walk the blind to see, the deaf to hear and it saved me!!